sadism

3:51AM

down time at work. idleness is indeed the devil's playground.

my head's pounding and i want to scream. nothing to do and no one to talk to. i tossed and turned all day. i thought we agreed not to have anything to do with each other?! why the fuck are you texting me? why, when you know it HURTS. it fucking hurts so bad and i was already having trouble sleeping and seeing your number come up made my mind race and my anxiety elevate to new heights. what the fuck are you DOING?! are you really that insensitive? that inconsiderate?

there is no good time to call. there is no gift to send. just stay away from me. if you think to call or send one of your stupid texts one day... DON'T. i may actually be in a good mood and hearing from you fucks it all up.

and keep your gifts. there was only one thing i ever wanted from you, and it's not something that can come in the mail.

just stay away from me. lose my number. delete me as surely as you have from your life. your friends are pieces of shit for tellin' you to stay away from me, why would i want to count myself among them?