more exercises in futility

i want him back so badly. why do i keep wanting someone who doesn't want me? how can i stop it from continuing? i'm so lost without Julio. there's this part of me that just KNOWS that no one else would want me, certainly not anyone that i wanted the same way.

i feel isolated. but i have to make myself get out there. there's so many things i wanted to share with him, and now i can't do that.