i deserve better...

... so why is it that all i can think about right now is hurting myself?

Because i can't afford to hope that he would actually come around. that he would actually care. i had originally given Julio an ultimatum: You have until the end of November to decide that you want to be in a real relationship with me. If at that time you are still not ready, then I'm cutting my losses.

why wait a whole month? because i never really thought he would choose me, and i needed that time to let go...

and now i don't even have that.

it hurts so bad...

Dominic San Juan