yes, i'm pissed. and hurt. and sad. i knew he wanted to break it off, and lawd knows he tried before, but he just wanted to get over me on his own terms. everything hurts and i hate that i got to keep moving. i don't even have time to get blasted. that's gonna have to wait till monday or tuesday i guess, when i have the night off. fuck it, i'm gonna venture out on my own sunday night.
don't trust my little sister either. and so i'm gonna try to move on up outta here sooner than later. martin might be willing to put me up for a coupla weeks, at least until i find a share up there, or maybe down in BK. i need a change of scene so bad. i just want to start over and not think about how bad everything is.
maybe he is right, and nobody cares. but that shit HURT when i called to see if he was home and he didn't want me to come over, indicating that he already had company. how quickly we change up, no? now i can't risk having ANYthing to do with him. and hate isn't so hard to fall into after all...
